I'm a fun copycat.

Life kind of sucks a little bit right now. We're so broke that we can't do anything. Even spending money on gas to get to work is killing us right now. (And really, that's for going to work. We both like our jobs but we'd also like to go elsewhere at some point.)

And my birthday is coming up. I've reached an interesting (at least to me) point with my birthday. I'm not all excited about it, like I might have been ten or more years ago (25 probably remains my favorite birthday, although 30 runs a close second). I'm not depressed about it either since, as far as I can tell, there isn't too much difference between being 35 and being 36. I know motherhood is a big chunk of this, but I'm far less interested in myself than I used to be. At times I do ache for the sort of introspection I used to have the time and energy for, and I do miss it, but I'm okay as I am right now.

But as much as I'm fairly okay with myself right now, I'm not okay with my life. As stated above, it kind of sucks right now. Every day I wake up with Nate. Every day I deal with having a dog I don't want to have. Every day involves meal planning on an invisible budget. Every day involves barely seeing or speaking to the hubby. Every day involves being too tired to focus on much reading. It's monotony and restriction.

So what's the prescription for that? FUN!

Yes, this is still me. Yes, I just used the word fun. I know, not something I discuss much. To be honest, I am completely and totally copying this idea from Maggie Mason. (Oh, and be sure to watch the TED video there. Can I just express how much I want to go to a TED event? So, so very much.)

So here's the plan. I'm going to do at least one fun thing every day for the next 30 days; day 30 will be my birthday (automatic fun!). I thought about doing a different 30 day project - you know, to actually be unique and not a complete copycat but - 1) my brain is too tired to come up with something great that also offers the possibility of being completely free and 2) I could use the fun, really. And having to keep it free is going to force me to be a little inventive on some days and to also look at some things a new way and see the fun where I may not be seeing it right now.

Oh - and I plan to take photos of this fun. We'll see how that goes since I'm not really a good photographer and I don't have Instagram to help me out.

But there it is. Fun. 30 whole days of fun. Well, 30 whole days in which something fun will happen each day. 30 days that are all fun, wholly - well, that's just not happening. This is still me.

Have you ever embarked on a 30 day project?