Moment of Light

December 3 – Moment.

Pick one moment during which you felt most alive this year. Describe it in vivid detail (texture, smells, voices, noises, colors).

I read this prompt this morning while I was walking Buster and immediately thought, "Oh, well, I have to write about the moment Nate was born."  It seems a given.  But, really, that moment was so surreal, so nearly out-of-body in its enormity, that it doesn't quite fit what I envision the answer to this prompt to be.

And now, after hours of thinking about the prompt on and off, I still don't have a better answer.  I haven't had any of those truly alive moments this year, or if I have, they haven't been of the pleasant variety.  They've been those moments where you sit, feeling alone whether you're alone or not, and are simply walloped by feeling the implications of a hundred life decisions at once.  Or one big event comes to a head and you feel the entire world fall away around you as you wonder how the hell you're going to make it through the next minute, hour, day.

Today, I'll add, is one of those days.  And it isn't the only one of those days that the hubby and I have had recently and certainly, by far, not the only one this year.

What's interesting to me is that this year had really demonstrated the universe's balance.  We had the biggest moment of light in our lives with the birth of Nate, but we have also had the darkest moments of our life together this year, as well.

So I'm glad that when I read the prompt this morning, Nate was my first thought and not the darkness we have been fighting all year.  We've won some of the battles with the darkness, but not all of them and new ones always appear.  Thank goodness for the light to keep us going.